Little Bit Of A Rant

Lately I haven't been doing so well. I've sort of lost hope. All my life I've said things like; Oh yes! When I'm famous I'll have a Mini convertible or When I'm famous I'll meet Dan and Phil! Or something else along those lines.

But, those whens have turned to ifs. And those ifs aren't as common as they used to be- and it sucks.

So. I sit here on the windowsill in the bathroom ready for a good ten minutes of crying in the shower. What the hell is wrong with me?

I want to put more effort into my YouTube channel, but I have no motivation whatsoever.

Since I've always wanted to be famous, I can't get used to my new way of thinking. I don't understand how people my age can just decide their going to be teachers or nurses- even though it makes perfect sense.

So, I guess in ten years I'll be stuck in a dead-end office job. 24 and single with a bunch of cats.

And yes, I'm fine.

The Problem With Birthdays

Ok. It's my birthday tomorrow (the 23rd of April) and I know it's stupid, but I'm not a big fan of birthdays. It's not that I won't go to a party or anything- I don't mind other people's- it's just mine I don't really care for.

Some adults don't really like birthdays because they're older or whatever, and people think that's the case with me, but really it's not. 

I have a severe in confidence, and I hate anything that's all about me- hence why a day that my family and friends dedicate to me is a terrible situation.

When I was younger I loved it! All the presents, and friends and family gathered around (and the sweets of course), but over the last few years I've just fallen out of love with all the celebrations- and it kinda sucks.

I mean there's nothing I can really do about it- apart from force a smile and hide an embarrassed blush of course- but I just feel bad for putting people through such effort for me. I appreciate every effort, but I just feel too awkward to enjoy it y'know? 

I'm a bit of a social casualty :P

Anyway, kind of dreading my birthday tomorrow (technically in an hour, haha). Sorry for posting such an awfully personal post but I'm planning a birthday haul in a few days :D

Love you lots,

Elle :)

Songs I'm Loving ☻

Hey guys! I feel like I don't do enough music posts, so I thought I'd put together a list of music I really like for fun :)

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1. The Power of Love - Gabrielle Aplin

{originally by Frankie Goes to Hollywood}

I love this song to bits. Gabrielle's vocals are beautifully haunting and her voice sounds so sweet! This version of Frankie Goes To Hollywood's amazing song was created for the John Lewis Christmas TV advert in 2012. I'd really recommend you start listening to Gabrielle Aplin- she'll make it big.

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2. Jet Pack Blues - Fall Out Boy 
{ Ruth ;) }

Fall Out Boy released their new album 'American Beauty/American Psycho' on the 16th of January, and I've been listening to it since it came out ♥. Jet Pack Blues is probably my favourite song on the album at the moment. The lyrics are perfect and sad and they tell an amazing story.

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3. I'm A Ruin - Marina and the Diamonds

Marina's third album 'Froot' is due for release on the 3rd of April, but she is releasing one song a month until then. I love 'I'm A Ruin', as- like the other songs I've chosen- the lyrics are amazing ♥. There is also a lot of character development across Marina's three albums so far.

I hope you get a chance to check out these songs- they deserve every listen ☺

What are your favourite songs at the moment?

Lots of love,

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